BOOK THE THIRD
4. Chapter IV
(continued)
Alike in their mornings at the house of Ione, and in their evening
excursions, Nydia was usually their constant, and often their sole
companion. They did not guess the secret fires which consumed her--the
abrupt freedom with which she mingled in their conversation--her capricious
and often her peevish moods found ready indulgence in the recollection of
the service they owed her, and their compassion for her affliction. They
felt an interest in her, perhaps the greater and more affectionate from the
very strangeness and waywardness of her nature, her singular alternations of
passion and softness--the mixture of ignorance and genius--of delicacy and
rudeness--of the quick humors of the child, and the proud calmness of the
woman. Although she refused to accept of freedom, she was constantly
suffered to be free; she went where she listed; no curb was put either on
her words or actions; they felt for one so darkly fated, and so susceptible
of every wound, the same pitying and compliant indulgence the mother feels
for a spoiled and sickly child--dreading to impose authority, even where
they imagined it for her benefit. She availed herself of this license by
refusing the companionship of the slave whom they wished to attend her.
With the slender staff by which she guided her steps, she went now, as in
her former unprotected state, along the populous streets: it was almost
miraculous to perceive how quickly and how dexterously she threaded every
crowd, avoiding every danger, and could find her benighted way through the
most intricate windings of the city. But her chief delight was still in
visiting the few feet of ground which made the garden of Glaucus--in tending
the flowers that at least repaid her love. Sometimes she entered the
chamber where he sat, and sought a conversation, which she nearly always
broke off abruptly--for conversation with Glaucus only tended to one
subject--Ione; and that name from his lips inflicted agony upon her. Often
she bitterly repented the service she had rendered to Ione: often she said
inly, 'If she had fallen, Glaucus could have loved her no longer'; and then
dark and fearful thoughts crept into her breast.
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