BOOK NINTH.
CHAPTER 1. DELIRIUM.
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And as he thus sifted his soul to the bottom, when he
perceived how large a space nature had prepared there for the
passions, he sneered still more bitterly. He stirred up in the
depths of his heart all his hatred, all his malevolence; and,
with the cold glance of a physician who examines a patient,
he recognized the fact that this malevolence was nothing but
vitiated love; that love, that source of every virtue in man,
turned to horrible things in the heart of a priest, and that
a man constituted like himself, in making himself a priest,
made himself a demon. Then he laughed frightfully, and
suddenly became pale again, when he considered the most
sinister side of his fatal passion, of that corrosive,
venomous malignant, implacable love, which had ended only
in the gibbet for one of them and in hell for the other;
condemnation for her, damnation for him.
And then his laughter came again, when he reflected that
Phoebus was alive; that after all, the captain lived, was gay
and happy, had handsomer doublets than ever, and a new
mistress whom he was conducting to see the old one hanged.
His sneer redoubled its bitterness when he reflected that out
of the living beings whose death he had desired, the gypsy,
the only creature whom he did not hate, was the only one who
had not escaped him.
Then from the captain, his thought passed to the people,
and there came to him a jealousy of an unprecedented sort.
He reflected that the people also, the entire populace,
had had before their eyes the woman whom he loved exposed
almost naked. He writhed his arms with agony as he thought
that the woman whose form, caught by him alone in the
darkness would have been supreme happiness, had been delivered
up in broad daylight at full noonday, to a whole people, clad
as for a night of voluptuousness. He wept with rage over all
these mysteries of love, profaned, soiled, laid bare, withered
forever. He wept with rage as he pictured to himself how
many impure looks had been gratified at the sight of that
badly fastened shift, and that this beautiful girl, this virgin
lily, this cup of modesty and delight, to which he would have
dared to place his lips only trembling, had just been transformed
into a sort of public bowl, whereat the vilest populace
of Paris, thieves, beggars, lackeys, had come to quaff in
common an audacious, impure, and depraved pleasure.
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