| Book the First - Recalled to Life
3. III. The Night Shadows
 A wonderful fact to reflect upon, that every human creature is
 constituted to be that profound secret and mystery to every other.
 A solemn consideration, when I enter a great city by night, that
 every one of those darkly clustered houses encloses its own secret;
 that every room in every one of them encloses its own secret; that
 every beating heart in the hundreds of thousands of breasts there,
 is, in some of its imaginings, a secret to the heart nearest it!
 Something of the awfulness, even of Death itself, is referable to
 this.  No more can I turn the leaves of this dear book that I loved,
 and vainly hope in time to read it all.  No more can I look into the
 depths of this unfathomable water, wherein, as momentary lights
 glanced into it, I have had glimpses of buried treasure and other
 things submerged.  It was appointed that the book should shut with
 a spring, for ever and for ever, when I had read but a page.  It was
 appointed that the water should be locked in an eternal frost, when
 the light was playing on its surface, and I stood in ignorance on the
 shore.  My friend is dead, my neighbour is dead, my love, the darling
 of my soul, is dead; it is the inexorable consolidation and
 perpetuation of the secret that was always in that individuality,
 and which I shall carry in mine to my life's end.  In any of the
 burial-places of this city through which I pass, is there a sleeper
 more inscrutable than its busy inhabitants are, in their innermost
 personality, to me, or than I am to them? As to this, his natural and not to be alienated inheritance,
 the messenger on horseback had exactly the same possessions as
 the King, the first Minister of State, or the richest merchant
 in London.  So with the three passengers shut up in the narrow
 compass of one lumbering old mail coach; they were mysteries to
 one another, as complete as if each had been in his own coach and
 six, or his own coach and sixty, with the breadth of a county
 between him and the next. |