Book the Third - The Track of a Storm
9. IX. The Game Made
(continued)
"Yes. As I was telling you last night when Lucie came in so
unexpectedly, I have at length done all that I can do here. I hoped
to have left them in perfect safety, and then to have quitted Paris.
I have my Leave to Pass. I was ready to go."
They were both silent.
"Yours is a long life to look back upon, sir?" said Carton, wistfully.
"I am in my seventy-eighth year."
"You have been useful all your life; steadily and constantly occupied;
trusted, respected, and looked up to?"
"I have been a man of business, ever since I have been a man.
indeed, I may say that I was a man of business when a boy."
"See what a place you fill at seventy-eight. How many people will
miss you when you leave it empty!"
"A solitary old bachelor," answered Mr. Lorry, shaking his
head. "There is nobody to weep for me."
"How can you say that? Wouldn't She weep for you? Wouldn't her child?"
"Yes, yes, thank God. I didn't quite mean what I said."
"It IS a thing to thank God for; is it not?"
"Surely, surely."
"If you could say, with truth, to your own solitary heart, to-night,
'I have secured to myself the love and attachment, the gratitude or
respect, of no human creature; I have won myself a tender place in no
regard; I have done nothing good or serviceable to be remembered by!'
your seventy-eight years would be seventy-eight heavy curses; would
they not?"
"You say truly, Mr. Carton; I think they would be."
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