THIRD NARRATIVE
7. CHAPTER VII
(continued)
"It may suit your convenience to forget; it suits my convenience to remember,"
she went on. "I know what I said--for I considered it with myself, before I
said it. I gave you one opportunity after another of owning the truth.
I left nothing unsaid that I COULD say--short of actually telling you that I
knew you had committed the theft. And all the return you made, was to look at
me with your vile pretence of astonishment, and your false face of innocence--
just as you have looked at me to-day; just as you are looking at me now!
I left you, that morning, knowing you at last for what you were--for what you
are--as base a wretch as ever walked the earth!"
"If you had spoken out at the time, you might have left me,
Rachel, knowing that you had cruelly wronged an innocent man."
"If I had spoken out before other people," she retorted, with another
burst of indignation, "you would have been disgraced for life!
If I had spoken out to no ears but yours, you would have denied it,
as you are denying it now! Do you think I should have believed you?
Would a man hesitate at a lie, who had done what I saw YOU do--
who had behaved about it afterwards, as I saw YOU behave?
I tell you again, I shrank from the horror of hearing you lie,
after the horror of seeing you thieve. You talk as if this
was a misunderstanding which a few words might have set right!
Well! the misunderstanding is at an end. Is the thing set right?
No! the thing is just where it was. I don't believe you NOW!
I don't believe you found the nightgown, I don't believe in
Rosanna Spearman's letter, I don't believe a word you have said.
You stole it--I saw you! You affected to help the police--I saw you!
You pledged the Diamond to the money-lender in London--I am sure of it!
You cast the suspicion of your disgrace (thanks to my base silence!)
on an innocent man! You fled to the Continent with your plunder
the next morning! After all that vileness, there was but one thing
more you COULD do. You could come here with a last falsehood
on your lips--you could come here, and tell me that I have wronged
you!"
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