18. FOR ANNIE 
Thank Heaven! the crisis --
 
    The danger is past,
 
And the lingering illness
 
    Is over at last --
 
And the fever called "Living"
 
    Is conquered at last. 
 
Sadly, I know
 
    I am shorn of my strength,
 
And no muscle I move
 
    As I lie at full length --
 
But no matter! -- I feel
 
    I am better at length. 
 
And I rest so composedly,
 
    Now, in my bed,
 
That any beholder
 
    Might fancy me dead --
 
Might start at beholding me,
 
    Thinking me dead. 
 
The moaning and groaning,
 
    The sighing and sobbing,
 
Are quieted now,
 
    With that horrible throbbing
 
At heart: -- ah, that horrible,
 
    Horrible throbbing! 
 
The sickness -- the nausea --
 
    The pitiless pain --
 
Have ceased, with the fever
 
    That maddened my brain --
 
With the fever called "Living"
 
    That burned in my brain. 
 
And oh! of all tortures
 
    That torture the worst
 
Has abated -- the terrible
 
    Torture of thirst
 
For the naphthaline river
 
    Of Passion accurst: --
 
I have drank of a water
 
    That quenches all thirst: -- 
 
Of a water that flows,
 
    With a lullaby sound,
 
From a spring but a very few
 
    Feet under ground --
 
From a cavern not very far
 
    Down under ground. 
 
And ah! let it never
 
    Be foolishly said
 
That my room it is gloomy
 
    And narrow my bed;
 
For man never slept
 
    In a different bed --
 
And, to sleep, you must slumber
 
    In just such a bed. 
 
My tantalized spirit
 
    Here blandly reposes,
 
Forgetting, or never
 
    Regretting its roses --
 
Its old agitations
 
    Of myrtles and roses: 
 
For now, while so quietly
 
    Lying, it fancies
 
A holier odor
 
    About it, of pansies --
 
A rosemary odor,
 
    Commingled with pansies --
 
With rue and the beautiful
 
    Puritan pansies. 
 
And so it lies happily,
 
    Bathing in many
 
A dream of the truth
 
    And the beauty of Annie --
 
Drowned in a bath
 
    Of the tresses of Annie. 
 
She tenderly kissed me,
 
    She fondly caressed,
 
And then I fell gently
 
    To sleep on her breast --
 
Deeply to sleep
 
    From the heaven of her breast. 
 
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